i'm tired...mind, body, and soul..

"I always knew that looking back to the cries would make me laugh, but I never knew that looking back to the laughs would make me cry.."



"Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will.."

just a little message in a bottle

"hey you.."

"i just wanna show that.."

"and.."

"for all trouble i've caused you.."

"actually i don't know for sure what are you scrambling for right now.."

"but just get up, stand up, and don't give up the fight..."

an unexpected guest

he shouldn't have come to my dream, but he successfully sneaked in to it. it was the first time since he has been gone, i mean since he has stayed away from me..

"dine, lo jangan suka sama gw lagi ya
lo harus move on dan coba cari orang yang lain
gw bukan cowok yang baik buat lo dine.."

why did you sentence me those words? is that the only thing you wanna say to me?
i've been trying..but it hasn't completely done. i'm sorry..and please don't hate me..

all, all of our moments
have just become ailments
i'm haunted of all everyday

i tried to go on like i never knew you
i'm awake but my world is half asleep
i pray to this heart to be unbroken..

you said, shut up and let me go! but you're always be the one for me..

the ting tings, 30/10/09, istora senayan

"So make sure you're thinkin' it through
You've let me down again
Offer me somethin'
I know you really meant
Cuz I don't wanna the one
Only overjoyed
Yeah I don't wanna be the one
Makin' all the noise
Yeah I don't wanna be the one
Hey!"

just still in my mind, how jules and katie has hypnotized me by their awesome performance. best luck for you two, i'm your biggest fan!

the wound is half healed but still it left scar!

eh maaf ya tiba-tiba ngeupload gambar serem gini. ahaha tapi itu foto gw sendiri yang gw edit kok, jadi tenang aja bukan foto horror beneran. kebiasaan deh, sekarang gw jadi nelantarin blog gw ini. hampir dua bulan lebih kali ya gw gak ngepost disini. maklumlah hidup semakin sibuk (ato sok sibuk?) dan dipenuhi banyak masalah (kalo ini emang bener).

jadi kemaren-kemaren itu gw sempet rumit gara-gara tingkah laku seseorang yang lagi gelap mata karena CINTA, yang seenaknya ngejudge segala hal tanpa diliat dulu dari berbagai sudut pandang. ihh, orang macem gini nih yang pikirannya sempit! just think twice if you wanna do something, gak cuman lo doang kok yang berada di posisi yang susah. tolong lain kali pikir-pikir dulu kalo mau bertindak, jangan mikirin perasaan sendiri aja! liat juga dari sudut pandang yang lainnya. hei cewek, gimana mau dewasa kalo pikiran lo kaya gitu terus? selesain masalah itu bisa diselesaiin secara baik-baik kok. gw tau gw salah, tapi menurut gw kesalahan gak cuman ada di gw doang. sebenernya gw gak diterima digiin seenaknya tanpa penjelasan apa-apa, tapi berhubung gw sayang bgt sama pacar lo itu, gw tau apa yang harus gw lakuin. sorry ya, gw bukan tipe orang yg suka maksain kehendak ato orang yg harus ngedapetin apa yg pengen gw milikin, dan lagi gw gak mau dicap sebagai perusak hubungan orang, i best be on my way out! disini gw bicara dari posisi gw sepihak, gak bermaksud ngeprovokasi dan ngungkit-ngungkit semuanya lagi, just based on my own opinion. lagian sekarang ada hal lebih penting yang yang harus gw lakuin, lo (dan pacar lo) juga pasti punya hal yang lebih penting yang harus kalian lakuin. just wishing two of you reach the happy end, really. semua yang terjadi ini pelajaran hidup juga kok buat gw. ikhlas? yess, gw belajar untuk ikhlas disini atas segalanya yang udah terjadi :)

sorry sempet curhat, itu kejadian beberapa bulan yg lalu kok. tp siapapun yang baca curhatan gw diatas tolong jgn ngejudge gw yg jelek-jelek ya. gw bukan pemeran antagonis, gw cuman orang yang gak tau apa-apa dan tanpa sengaja terlibat jauh ke dalam masalah yang menurut gw kurang jelas. now i'm fine (walopun gw tipe orang yg susah kalo harus move on! dan gw menerima semuanya dengan lapang dada kok. because i know, another good thing is waiting for me. entah apa itu, but i'm sure i'll get it someday :)

i look to the future because that's where i'm going to spend the rest of my life!

i love you or i loved you, i don't know which one is my current feeling right now! gw belom move on sepenuhnya loooh :D

trip to japan with bff

finally i uploaded my summer photos in japan! :)

arrived at narita airport

toll rest area

food stand for festival (seems like in japanese comics hahaha)

near our hotel, dai-ichi hotel

ueda city's intersection

ueda station and around (place where we buy food at supermarket!)

japanese folk festival, gion matsuri (carrying mikoshi)

tokyo station

tokyo disneyland's front gate

tokyo disneyland's main entrance

cinderella castle

goofy's house!

space mountain ride

in front of kameido station

akihabara, tokyo's electronic and anime center

taito game station

intersection at akihabara

takeshita dori - harajuku

shibuya station

media complex Q front

shibuya 109

in front of shibuya 109

in front of shibuya 109

the original pepper lunch

tokyo tower in the evening

temple at ueda castle

nagano district

zenkouji temple

tanabata place

ueda folk festival, wasshoi festival

at onsen (japanese outdoor hot spring)

is (not) enjoying the holiday

oh my god, long time no post. i have never posted any since last month! yeah, that means i was so so so busy. hahaha. and it's been a week since i'm back from japan. bener-bener trip yang menyenangkan sekali bersama teman-teman! makasih buat mama dan papa yang udah ngasih kado ultah trip ke jepang selama 17 hari kemaren! it was so so so fun! foto-fotonya nyusul yaa, soalnya banyak banget ;p

i spent this week at my campus. just for bvoice radio tersayang! yah sekalian sih ketemu sama temen-temen kampus yang udah lama banget gak ketemu. kangen banget-bangetan sama mereka.

anyway, the bomb issue is happening here lately. i was in japan when the bomb were exploded at jw marriott and ritz carlton hotel. but thanks god, i hear today the criminal (noordin m top) is not alive anymore! did the police shoot him? goodjob! just let this person die and enjoy the rest in hell!

suasana di akhirat pasti lagi ricuh-ricuhnya, disaat michael jackson lagi nyanyi, mbah surip lagi ngelawak, dan ws rendra lagi baca puisi, eeeh tau-tau noordin m top datang dengan membawa bomb! hahahaha ;p

can't wait for holiday!

sebelomnya gw mau ngucapin happy birthday dulu ke sahabat gw, yogya yasin akbar! happy birthday, akbar! you're just one day younger than me! but now we're same turning to 20! by this age you've should realized that life sucks, but you've got best friends here so i'm sure you can through it slowly, just believe! i know you can solve it, be confident hey you're tough man!

happy birthday hey my best friend!

ahhh ganti topik! sekarang udah 9 days left to go to tokyo! ahahaha can't wait for my 2 weeks trip to japan. gw bahkan belom mulai packing sama sekali, belom beli kebutuhan untuk disana. emang selalu kebiasaan gw deh, apa-apa selalu mendadak. pasti sehari ato dua hari sebelomnya gw bakal panik dan gedebak gedebuk kesana kemari hehee. agak deg-degan juga sih, soalnya trip kali ini gw cuman pergi ber-4 sama sahabat-sahabat gw. yah taun lalu gw juga ke bali cuman ber 5 sama temen gw sih, tapi karena itu masih bali jadi kita masih santai-santai aja. haaa so excited but nervous!

yeah one more exam for tomorrow, then i'll be free for two months!